Today is a bittersweet day:
August 17 will always be a difficult day for me.
It is three days before my birthday. That’s not why the 17th is so challenging for me however. It is because it is the day my paternal grandmother passed (my Nana.) It will resonate clearly for me until we meet again.
My Dad found his mother and what made it even more emotional for me is that she still held a birthday card in her hand for me. I was three days short of being 8 years old. My Dad had been gone from Connecticut for over four years and my Nana was the last connection I had to him. So when she passed, it was tremendously difficult for me. I think that’s when I came to rely on my maternal grandparents more and I believe that’s when my grandfather REALLY stepped up.
A birthday should be something to celebrate. However, with my Nana transitioning so close to my birthday, it has always been a bittersweet day for me.
Anyone who has been following Wisdom and Life for any time should realize my thought patterns tend to the esoteric. I’m always looking for connections. I’m always watching out for how people and events relate to each other. So here’s what I think, esoteric as it may be in someone else’s eyes, it is what I see:
You understand how deeply I connect with predestination and you understand that I see connections everywhere, right? So let me draw you a picture. Let me connect the dots as I see them:
My Aunt Bet, my Fairy Godmother is my Nana.
Aunt Bet became my surrogate Nana. Why do I see that?
It is because Aunt Bet took care of me just as my Nana did. I see another connection between my Nana and Aunt Bet in the fact that Aunt Bet was my stepdad’s aunt and my Nana was my dad’s mother.
And speaking of predestination, I can clearly believe that before I incarnated into this my most recent incarnation, it was planned by my Nana and Aunt Bet that they would each play a monumental role in my life. My Nana for the first eight years when I needed to maintain a connection to my biological Dad. And Aunt Bet later in life when I needed her love and support.
As I’ve maintained for as long as I’ve been incarnated now, my life has been full of emotional and physical challenges; however I’ve had a HUGE support team, from friends to family I could turn to when I needed them. I could very well have gone down another road, followed a different path. I could have become a very angry person. I could have become very negative and no one would have blinked. No one would have thought twice. But I’d seen people with similar experiences take that path. I wasn’t raised that way. I count myself fortunate to have had such wonderful people in my life:
My Maternal Grandparents.
My Aunt Bet.
I miss my grandparents!
I miss my Nana!
I miss my Aunt Bet.
My Nana is always close to my thoughts, but ESPECIALLY in August because three days before my birthday is always emotionally distressing for me.
Be Happy! Be Well! Be Positive!
Blessings to you.
Once you realize that life is eternal,
That our souls our eternal,
That we return to light and physical over and over;
We then lose all our distress
We then lose all our fear of dying. For there truly is no end.