I do not sit down at my desk to put into verse something that is already clear in my mind.  If it were clear in my mind, I should have no incentive or need to write about it.  We do not write to be understood; we write to understand.

Cecil Day-Lewis
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David Kundtz

I love that I have so many resources for Wisdom and Life.  There is seldom a time I’m at a loss for what to discuss at this blog.  What writer’s block?  At least with Wisdom and Life that is.  My other two blogs I sometimes have a challenge with.

The above passage by Cecil Day-Lewis resonated with me the moment I opened Awakened Mind to page 50 and read the quote.  I’m sure those of you who call yourself writers can also connect with what Lewis is saying here.  Clearly, when I wrote fiction, I wrote to understand.  I wrote to release the negative.  I wrote to lighten my load.  I wrote to understand what caused me stress.  I can’t say all the writing I produced helped me understand.  It did however, help me get past the challenges I faced while growing up.  So in that respect, I suppose writing DID help me understand.  Now after over twenty years of NOT writing fiction and as I call my writing now:
Short little bursts of inspiration, I’m still writing to understand.  Only now I’m doing my best to understand my place in this spiritual world.

I stopped writing fiction as many of my longtime readers here are aware, because I lost interest in what I was writing.  What was it that I wrote?  Mostly dark fantasy.  I think the reason I gravitated to that genre is that I went through a dark time when I wrote fiction.  You know what they say?  That we naturally gravitate toward what we know.

Now as I look back at when I stopped writing, it was around the time I graduated from Southern Connecticut State University.  I finally found a job that fulfilled me:
Working at RJ Julia Booksellers doing what I was meant to do, being a book advisor.  And fulfilling my prophecy of working full time at my local library doing the same thing.

I no longer needed the darkness around me because I no longer felt the darkness around me.  I pulled myself out of the dark hole and started to see light, started to see the positive.  A number of years later I felt so much light, so much positive energy around me that I had to share it.  That’s when Wisdom and Life was born.

Funny.  It took until this very moment as I sit here pounding out these words on my keyboard for me to understand the relationship between my writing THEN and my writing NOW.
That even THAT is connected.  That I wrote dark fiction because I was in a dark place and now I write positive life affirming content because I found the light.

So as it turns out, this column wound up being prescient.  I’m still writing to understand.

Be Happy!  Be Well!  Be Positive!
Blessings to you.
—
Chris

Once you realize that life is eternal,
That our souls our eternal,
That we return to light and physical over and over;

We then lose all our distress
We then lose all our fear of dying.  For there truly is no end.